Calling all Steven Universe Fans!

Oct 8th Javits Center NYC 1p.m. Stevens,  Garnets, Pearls, Amethysts, Gregs, ukulele players, djs, anyone! Let's sing together for Rebecca Sugar. Comic Con.  See you then! Come to the fb page! https://www.facebook.com/events/905028506268102/





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Spring has finally allowed itself to be shown.

Seriously took so long to get here and now things are blooming, bugs are buggin and kids are happy to be able to be outside and bask in the sunny goodness. Wish I had as much energy as the kids did though cause ufff I am on empty! So here a few purty flowers.






I had a sweet kitty with 4 itty bitty babies for a few days and you have got to see this gorgeous creature!

I am in need of help or not

I have become a tad more expressive about one of my very oh so impossible dreams lets say. I try not to gush or express my adoration towards celebrities but I can deny it no longer! I am enamored with Robert Downey Jr. There I said it!

The man has got something that just makes me go stupid! I have met a few celebrities in my life, all very nice, well all but one! But if I were to ever meet Robert Downey Jr I believe I will behave like a 13 year old girl meeting Justin Beiber! Or however the heck you spell it.

Not only has the man made a superb come back in his movies but it seems he is on the right track in his personal life, though some of that bad boy part draws me to him as well. The man is just gorgeous, this gorgeous creature that makes me weak damn it!

I hope he knows how loved and adored he is. I also hope he does more movies ASAP! And if there is a chance in the world I could do a photo-shoot with anyone on this planet, it would be him, yes I may jump him *kidding* but it would be a privilege and a dream come true to take his pictures.

*Sigh* He makes me smile and think naughty thoughts! Win-WIN!

MIA

Life is seriously a difficult jigsaw puzzle but a few pictures have been taken. Not my best work but hey it's something.

I hate

I hate winter, I hate it so much.

I hate this state!

I hate that my mom is far.

I hate cleaning.

I hate grumpy old men.

I hate that I have no one to go hang out with when I feel like it.

I hate having so much crap in the house and no way of getting rid of it.

I hate laundry, where the hell is the damn The Jetsons Rosie feature that I can have and afford?

I hate having to poop after taking a shower.

I hate traffic.

I hate people who spit when they talk.

I hate not being able to sleep as long as I want.

I hate cooking.

I hate listening to people who have so much they have to rub it in your face over and over and
over, ok I get it you have it all now go some place else and talk to someone who gives a shit.

I hate people who have no talent and yet they make money off of it.

I hate head aches.

I hate having glasses.

I hate when I finally go to sleep and I have to get up to pee.

I hate screaming children.

I hate decorating.

I hate taking decorations down.

I hate that people decide to call when I can't talk and don't stop with the calling.

I hate nosy people.

I hate hitting my toe in the dark, jumping up and then falling on my ass while I hit my head on a piece of furniture and no one hears it or helps.

I when I have almost everything for something I need but one thing and no where to get it.

I hate cat puke.

I hate having to fart in a public place.

I hate eating and getting something stuck in my teeth and I can't get it out.

I hate pushy sales people.

I hate BO.

I hate allergies.

I hate wanting to go see a movie in the theaters and when I finally get a chance to go see it
it's gone.

I hate mint chocolate.

I hate not finding things when I need them.

I hate pimples.

I hate being asked "what are you doing?" when it is obvious.

I hate big cars in front of me who drive slower than a snail on weed.

I hate eye buggers.

I hate not being able to fly.

I hate dark circles under the eyes.

I hate so much I could go on but I just hate a lot of things at the moment.

HATE!

Well, well, well.

Lets see if this is therapeutic. Hello blog, haven't seen you in months.

A lot of things have happened since I last posted, honestly most of it is just unimportant but a few things have changed the way I view people. Oh people, you no longer surprise me.

I have been burnt and no longer expect the good from people, I rather feel this way because if I keep going by how I have always been, another someone will just come along and disappoint me eventually so if I don't get my hopes up then I am protected.

Enough about that! One of my sisters got married, that's cool. The kids are getting bigger and smarter. Cats have gotten homes and that's pretty much it.

Ok then, might as well post pictures, haven't even done much photography either, what for? but here is what I got. Enjoy.















Well hope you liked, if not wouldn't surprise me. I have a major head ache and I need to lay down for a bit. I will have to come back to add more things but not now. Ciao!

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I don't take disappointment very well. I truly feel the pain of those I care about and at many times even those I know not much about, even if it's only something told and seen in the public eye, I still feel their pain. I have moments I forget I am an adult and behave in the most natural way my mind, body and heart desire, kind of a small moment of freedom if you will. I seldom stop those moments in front of other adults, some find it fun perhaps quirky, lots find it annoying, those who find it annoying don't know all of who I am. I day dream often, most of the time it inspires me, sometimes it makes me reminiscent of the things I was and things I will never be.

I like to compliment strangers, it could be on anything small like a hair clip they have on to something I find beautiful like their eyes. I sing in the shower, pretty good actually or so my audience believes, you know shampoos, conditioners and other shower regulars. I hate monotony. I rarely hold grudges, of course I get hurt plenty of times but I don't really hold on to those moments unless they are something major in which forgiveness and forgetting is not possible. I hate two people in this world with every single fiber of my being, can't say I will be unhappy when they die. I have never had a difficult time speaking to people, I like speaking to people although as I age I find it hard to hide my disapproval when it comes to something I am passionate about and those who are indifferent or against it become very undesirable and unworthy of my time.

I love animals, animals are my passion, they make me feel alive. I love how they look, how they behave, how they do what they do because they must to survive and I love lending a helping hand to those with out a voice. I love food, glorious, delicious food. I am not sure what I have that attracts teenagers to me and while yes it's a bit frustrating to me at times because I want to grab them and smash their heads in for a second so they see that life gets harder and they should enjoy their youth, I still enjoy their company and how they trust me.

I have a fear of making new friends, only because I don't want to lose them. I miss a lot of people who have touched my life. I am not a morning person, at all. I will not greet you with a happy go lucky sunshine filled new day, unless I have had a good night of sleep and that rarely happens but I am not a raging maniac either, just get me coffee and a smoke and I will tolerate anything. I am addicted to nicotine although I am very aware of the harm it causes. I hate them so much but I still love them, guess that is an ironic situation but that's how it is. I love shoes, heels to be exact, and if I could wear heels all day with out my feet killing me I would, why? Because I love them. I don't like the color green even if it's all over the place and it is the color of money, if it were up to me money would be blue or purple.

I really enjoy musicals, I wish one day to just go some place and start to sing a song and have everyone around join in, like that Coke commercial, that would be awesome. I can do some cartoon voices and accents but I only do it in front of my children, they get a kick out of it and one of them is really good at it as well. I hate cleaning, ohhhh how I hate cleaning, dishes especially get to me every single time and laundry curse you laundry! I do enjoy a nice clean home though. I can't bake for the life of me, not sure why but I just can't do it, maybe it's a good thing since I love food so much. I have conflicting feelings of my physical appearance, most of the time I have low self esteem. I view myself as this creature who had two beautiful children and am very lucky to be alive and not completely well but I have a lot of good things. I wish I could make people see the beauty I see in them and yet when I look in a mirror I well I don't really enjoy what I see.




I hate beeping sounds, you know alarms, microwave or stoves, hate them, they aggravate me. I suffer from road rage, people in front of me are complete morons and people behind me are complete maniacs. I can guess age, sex and more from how people drive, no seriously it's very weird but I can guess it. I believe in love most of the time, that beautiful, mind blowing, heart racing, palms sweating, nervous feeling, floating on clouds, puppies, kittens and rainbows kind of love but I avoid becoming too happy because of fear of the pain that it can bring with it.

I am not book smart at all, hell I hate books, well I don't hate them just it is very difficult for me to sit down and grab a book and read. I can't get enough of a good comedy movie or cartoons, I think I like cartoons more than my kids.

I am a very complex person, it takes a very special, strong person to love me because some days I don't even love myself. I enjoy making people laugh. I do not like spiders, them critters I could do with out, just poof gone from the planet and I am good, ok so not all off the planet just not in my house and I won't turn in to this pants grabbing, circle turning, screaming nut job. I still have a hard time believing I am a mother, it is an incredibly exhausting thing to be but wow it's incredible.

I am so much, perhaps too much to ever actually put on paper so I won't even try it, but I am all the things I previously mentioned and much more that perhaps you already know some of it or want to know more of it, or not really want to know at all but it is who and what I am. I am in no way shape or form perfect, nor do I ever think anyone could be cause I sure have never met anyone who is, some pretty damn close but always something that makes one go “ah yes, and there it is” but unless it is something so vile and disturbing that I can't stomach well nothing to worry about.

I am me.

NEW YEAR!

What a crappy year was 2009! and it's over, OOOOOVEEEEERRRRR! WOO TO THE HOOOOO!

So far 2010 has been good, better keep it that way Mr 2010 you hear?

Lets seem the awesomeness of animals rocks and just gonna share a few sweet faces from Lost Paws that need a home :D










Well I a m super tired and all that jazz but before I go I want to leave you all with love...



I hope this new year brings you pure and absolute joy!

Man I suck at blogs!

Well lets see, it has been a while since I wrote anything on well anything so I I'll go backwards.

Ranger:

It is still pending, and to top it off the people called me stating that the person in charge is no longer working there so I have to resend all the information. Freaking idiots!

Life:

Well I have been going through a hard time, family issues. Just a bit of advice, if someone in the past has failed you repeatedly, not been in your life for some time and says they have changed, keep your guard up because as much as you would love to think the best at times it just never comes.

Animal Rescue:

Well let me tell you this is pretty awesome! On Sunday the 20th something pretty awesome will happen! look...



Casey is well known for being a well hard ass on the show and all that jazz but he's being a sweet dumpling for the rescue and I can't wait to see him in the costume :D

Photography:

I'll just post pictures now....
























Well other than that, not much going on, so hope ya'll well. Hope your Thanksgiving was awesome!

From my family to yours... Happy Holidays!

Unhappy Endding

On October 9, 2009 at the AMC theater parking lot in Edison NJ, a small crowed gathered around a car. I saw this and asked what was wrong and was told there was a kitten under a car. Well what do you think I did? go away from a frighten cat? NEVER! So after speaking to the rude and in my opinion, plain uncaring animal "control" man *coughs Ed* who did not have a trap, cat food or even a flash light, and told me to "you have to get out of here" I went above his head, no clue who he was messing with.

I looked, didn't see the kitten so I did what I would do, got under the car, in nice clothes and heel. I got my husband to get the jack and after getting the car higher, searching and searching the kitten was above the tire under the lining of some car part I don't know the name of, I reached up and in and got the "ferocious" beast out. It was this tiny little black kitten, so scared and small. I wanted to just bring him home but the man told me I couldn't, by law.

I called the next day to find out when the kitty would be ready for adoption since they Edison Shelter is a kill shelter and I have heard horror stories and was told in 10 days. Not 10 business day cause 2 weeks later the poor guy was still in there.

On October 23, 2009 I finally got the ok to pick him up. All excited and ready to see this little guy I drove there. I was not allowed to get him from his cage but I did get him. He was very vocal in the crate and after signing the papers and giving the $25 donation off we were, but I did complain about the man before I left.

Once home I got him out and he was super thin, I mean really thin, and his fur was so dirty and to top it off was infested with fleas. I gave him a bath, and oh my the amount of dirty and junk that came off of him was incredible! but unlike any normal cat he didn't squirm in the water. I dried him off, and gave him food, but he wasn't eating so I force fed him a bit but something seemed wrong. He was weak and just looked terrible so I rushed him to the ER.

At the ER I was scared and just really in hopes that all would be ok, this kitty was special! I walked in to the room, and I hate that room, that room is where I had to say "Suja is too old and she is in pain" so we had to put her down (ferret) so I already had a bad experience there. The vet came in and explained what was wrong...

His body temperature is so low we can't get a reading. His flea infestation has made him anaemic and we have tried every leg and neck to get blood but we can't get a line. He is in shock, his gums, ears, eyes are so pale, this kitten has no chance of survival. He needs blood transfusions, and even then I honestly do not believe he will make it, I am so sorry.

My heart just sank. I mean it was like someone punched it out, grabbed it, tossed it on the floor and stomped on it. I called my fellow Lost Paws volunteer and asked her opinion, after she spoke to the vet she said "Lola I am so sorry" that meant we had to do what I feared, euthanasia. I cried so much, the vet tech who had told me she is pretty used to things like this also was not well and was a sweet support.

A few minutes later they brought him in wrapped up with hot water bottles. His little head sticking out with these big sad eyes and I told him how sorry I was, kissed him and gave him to the Vet. They gave me a paper with his little paw print and the kitty in a tiny box for the burial. Although it was through Lost Paws I paid out of pocket for this one, like I said before he was very special.

The Edison Shelter is a horrible, disgusting, inhumane , animal death trap! For 14 days this kitten was not cared for, and this is just one! I can't even imagen the rest of the animals in that facility. To have the cojones to give me an animal who was ill, hell to call yourselves an animal rescue is like Dr Kevorkian running a nursing home! I am so disgusted, hurt and sad, it should of not happened this way.

I am going to do everything that is in my power to expose this pathetic excuse of animal shelter. They will pay me back for the adoption fee and the medical bill. I will get justice for Ranger and all of the animals this place has ever mistreated and killed.

Rest in peace Ranger.



You are missed.